I'll cross the sky for your love, for I have promised, this love will last forever

So today I stood out sick....... again. It's really getting to be a pain in the ass because today my mom made run a ton of errands, but when she got home she let me sleep. I really am starting to feel better though. I went to see a doctor today, and he told me I have a NASTY virus. But he does think that it's subsiding. He also told me that if I don't feel well, then don't go to school. Sit in and get better. But I think I need to try to go to school tomarrow. My mom called and got my assignments, and it looks like I have a shitload of work I need to turn in.

Brit feels bad becuase I keep "going out of my way for her." And I really don't, I'm already in Providence, so it's not a big deal to pick her up. She's feeling much better, and I seemed to be getting worse and worse until this morning. But she feels bad that I keep picking her up, and bringing her chicken soup, and it's really no big deal. I don't mind doing it at all. I do it because I want to and because I love her, not because I'm obligated. It's not like I'm dragging my feet and saying "what the hell?!?! I have to pick HER up again?" NO. It's much different. I'm much happier and appriciative to be able to see her during the week. This stupid no seeing eachother during the week rule sucks. But according to Brit, her mother is thinking about lifting the rule, which is "freakin' sweet." (I'm from RI, I had to use the Peter Griffin line). I love Brit a lot, and I hate having to make up stupid excuses like "I need to fix the surround sound," to see her during the week.

She also feels like she's giving nothing back when I "go out of my way for her." I think she's giving quite enough back. Being my girlfriend is a tough job. I'm an asshole. She's gorgeous, and she makes me very happy so I think she's has given back quite enough. Don't you? She's a really great person who likes to help people, and I imagine that me helping her when I'm sick makes her feel very helpless, which could quite possibly why she feels so bad. Brit works to hard. That's on of her flaws. She thinks that she is lazy when she really works harder than most of the people I know. It's one of those self-confidence issues that her mother has bent out of proportion when she was little, and now she has a very bent view on those aspects of life. So far, I have been very unsuccesful in bending those veiws back to "the norm," but I'm going to keep trying because she doesn't deserve half the crap she has to put up with.