I hitched a ride with my soul by the side of the road, just as the sky turned black

Yesterday I saw "Casanova" with Brit. That was actually both a good and bad movie at the same time. they fight scenes were really randomly placed, and the historical innacuracy really really sucks, it kills the whole movie.

Today Brit found a winterball dres!!!! she was really depressed and down because she couldn't find one tat fit, but with some minor alterations, the one she found is absolutely perfect. It's not over done, she looks stunning to begin with, and she makes the actual dress look 100 times better. She was breathtakingly gorgeous when she tried it on today.

I've kind of been dealing with some inner demons about what i had percieved to be a dead issue, but for me it's not, and i dont think it is for Brit either. She just doesnt trust me like she used to, and that really really gets me down. She can't even have fun at the beach anymore. I really ruined that one.

I was left alone with nothing to do but go to work, and after i was alone and feeling bad again. I was at home building a fire when my mom called and asked me to go to get some wrapping paper for my sister. after cruising to a few places, a ran into a couple of friends that have the same thought... i deffinately dont deserve what i have, and if they were in brit's possition, they would have been out of there four months ago when the trouble started.