Do yourself a favor, and pack your bags; buy a ticket, and get on the train.

So today was rough. Really rough. I dont know why but I reviewed my life in whole and how much i miss my grandma. It seems like, though, as bad as things get there's always one good thing that makes things better. everything was good for a while, and things just went wrong today, but i got to go out and then things were better.

So grandma was great. she was there when my parrents couldnt be. i dont know if it was because there were being selfish or because they just legitametly couldnt handle everything when they had marriage trouble, my grandma just always seemed to be there. I should have been there for her. I feel like some of my motivation was lost when she died, but it's turned on again by other great people so i broke even, i guess.

There are verry few people I consider important enough to be vital for my existance and two of them are gone. I really hope the other ones are ok. they're all stressed and all on the edge.