everything reminds me of her, this evening

So there's this girl, and she makes me smile. She's amazing and i with out a doubt am head over heals in love with this girl. No one makes me smile like she does and I've fallen so hard that i can't get up. I kinda like it down here. I think i just might stay forever. I love brittany helen bert.

So I had this party, and everyone came, and i felt like no one had a good time. a bunch of people were fighting and i fought with everyone. i tried to make everyone happy and once more it just blew up in my face and im back at square one with no one that cares. I've got like two friends, and even that's a shakey sort of assumption...

I Think

So I'm taking this philosophy course at CCRI right now, and I disagree with DeCarte. If you think, you can also be in a dream, so technically you're not. You still dont know that you are just because you think.

anyway, my instructor is cool. I like these collee type courses and im hoping that it boosts my GPA since i didnt finish my school year as well as i would have liked to.

I'm on vacation wee from tiara. that's pretty bitchin'.

Even your emotions have an echo, and so much space.

I had that party last night, and TONS of people showed up, actually, a lot more than I had prepared for. I tried to accomidate the oncoming rush of peopleby rushing to the store and getting more burgers which seemed to work out of, and then i remember that we had tons of cole slaw potato salad and maccaroni salad in the house that we now have as left overs! =)

So yeah, I'm lighting fireworks of last night, and one litterally shot of right in my face. My mom was screaming because she was so scared, and i got really lucky becuase it only grazed my nose (inside and out), burned a little bit of my hair, and stunned my hearing for a little while. It was one of the big cannons, so in theory, I shouldn't really have a head right now.

After that shocker, I washed my face and I walked back outside, and before venturing back into the water to avoid misquitos and all the party guest who seemed rather annoyed with me now, I finally got to try one of Brit's excellent, scumptious, amazing, rich, decadent home made deserts. Everything had Ghiradelli Chocolate, so I felt myself getting fatter as I had my first strawbery and pretzel, but it was so go and couldn't stop. and the cake! oh wow! so moist! so nice! so good!

okay, now that i did a little blogging, I need to go and finish cleaning out me backyard.

Wish I could live twice, and I still might, if these wounds heal right, i see a little light, even though it's still night

SO I'm having a fourth of july party today, and no I don't think anyone is going to come. So basically I think today is going to be a gigantic blow out, and I will have just wasted a bunch of money for nothing. Oh damn.

I'm affraid because i have no fear

So tonight Brit and I celebrated our one year anniversary. It was great, I think. We went to Siena down town on Federal hill, which I think has become my new favorite restaurant. Oh man, I'm serious when i tell you it was some of the best food I have ever had, and it wasn't that expensive either.

Yesterday afternoon I was freakin out because LiRog was closed and I didn't know where I should get Brit flowers since Roger couldn't come help me, so I went to Micheal FLorist in N.Providence. They made a BEAUTIFUL boquet and Brit loved it. And I gave her these Pink Topaz earings from Ross-Simons. She didn't seemed to thrilled about them because they didnt really go with her outfit. But she likes the stones.

Brit got really reeally dressed up and she looked unbelievably pretty. She even wore her hair curly and used as little make up as she could. And her favorite little black dress. She looked stunning last night and we had a great time.

I think last night really set the standard high for next year's anniversary.